The main idea is always love. I can't be sure what is my feeling towards love anymore. Deep inside, I always imagine falling in love, once again, allowing myself to be wrapped in warm embrace, with fluttering heart and giddy feeling. On the other hand, I've experienced dreadful love, that sliced my heart and left me scars after scars. The experience had hardened me, into someone i can't recognize anymore. I became mean, because i'm hurting. I hurts others, because I'm already broken inside. I can't control myself. I'm burning with rage, towards love, towards myself, and towards those who made me this way. However, changing have never been an option, because leaving the one hurting me this way is not an option either.

When dream is worse than reality, where would you escape to?
I've been reading too much of Twilight lately. And that made the dream becoming worse. I know how much rejection hurts, and out of that, come the passion towards the rejected. Going through Twilight, come the depression, the pity and the obsession towards Jacob. The sun, the air, that's all i ever needed. Why do i need the drug, like Edwards? Sometimes, I've come to question the sanity of my choice. Is there something wrong with my head when I prefer Jacob than Edward, when everyone else prefer otherwise? Somehow, that describes how i define love. Love feels stronger with rejection. I can feel the pain that comes with rejection, and I always define the pain as love. I always want what i can't have, like an obsession. But when i get it, or when it is easy to have, i wouldn't want it anymore. The pain of rejection makes me feels alive, somehow. But that pain can only makes me wants more, never enough....

been trying to edit pictures and learn how to use photoshop...
i didn't make the pictures the right 100x100 size for avatar anyway..
and there's only 8 pictures, haha

             

            


plus a BOF siggie
here comes

         

    

    

* the gifs are from korean drama Boys Over Flower / Ggotboda Namja ep 12
* i don't need credit, just use them however you like
* any comments or suggestions are welcomed


    

    

    

    

    

		I will marry akanishi jin.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in paris in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 6 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a orange beetle.
		I will spend my days as a singer, and live happily ever after.

NOTE: reposting - credit to masuda_takahits@LJ


They are the messages from the members of KAT-TUN on J-web, the special pages for their latest single release.
Today they completed those update finally, so I will show you them.
(My shoulder and back got stiffed by working with the computer!)


NOTICE: The word/mark between two asterisks are actually written in Emoji (picturalized font) for mobile phone.


Kazuya KAMENASHI (2007/11/18)

Our new single 'Keep the faith' is going to be released.
This time, as we can appear on many music TV programs, with begging your attention to them, I'm glad if you have it and the DVD which is also going to be released on 21st.
We all will continue to work as KAT-TUN to be able to surely bring you every discs, so please listen, watch, and feel them! Grin
Kame


Jin AKANISHI (2007/11/19)

This is the main theme song of 'Yuukan Club' and very easy to learn, so sing at karaoke.
As SHOCHIKUBAI Miroku-kun is also singing, please.


Junnosuke TAGUCHI (2007/11/20)

'Keep the faith', which is a main theme song of the drama.
As this song was composed by HIMURO-san, its image is like a rock and wild.... the sales point is its coolness!
At the performance we dance a lot, so we will show our coolness, that please expect to watch it!
And about DVD, it is well edited for the people who couldn't come to our live and who want to watch the excellent scene.
This, is really nice!
Live photos and best shots, so many! I chose photos for me by myself.
Recommend everyone and let's sing together!


Koki TANAKA (2007/11/21)

This song is really cool!
As HIMURO-san is the big-name!
Anyway, it was made into cool product.
Well, I spent much time for my rap this time.
I didn't want to break the world view of HIMURO-san and I want to make a rap which sounds cool when to be listened rather than to stick the skill for 'rhyming'.
This time, I stated my opinion "I want to do such!" for the first time, and I begged my extremely strict work!


Tatsuya UEDA (2007/11/22)

This time our 5th new single 'Keep the faith' is going to be released, but have you kindly bought it *！* *？*
For those who say "Ehh, not yet", no, thank you(laughter). That's wrong *！*
For those who had kindly bought it, thank you, very very much! And DVD too.
Have you already watched it?
If you haven't, please buy it.
After all, what you have with you now might be 2 item, single and DVD. *SPARKLE*
For those all of who bought them, the autograph of Yuuichi NAKAMARU will be sent. *WINK*
In addition, if he is feeling well, Kame will give his autograph too (laughter).
Well, autographs are definitely joke. (´∀｀)
Everybody, please wait them without expectation. *SMILE*
That's all, by Ueda-kun. *CAT*


Yuuichi NAKAMARU (2007/11/23)

On the day the single is going to be released, DVD is also released, and
they are a little linked, for the making film of our new song 'Keep the faith' PV is recorded on DVD!
(NOTE: He surely said so, but it looks confusing, the making film is recorded not in live DVD but in the additional DVD for single CD.)
I'm sure that it was recorded coolly!
Not just a particular part, but the whole part...the "work" itself is cool.
Of course, we used real fire and water for 3 kinds of the photos on the cover of the singles!
Ah! And I want you to look at the photos inside cover! I think it is the coolest!
There is a good photo which I wonder "why did they use this for the cover?"(laugh).
Please enjoy when you look at it!